Falling for the wrong person

Trying, keeping, holding back is all you can do. In your heart you know this feelings are one sided will not, or ever will be reciprocated. The feeling was right. Your heart just misses that feeling. Unfortunately its on the wrong person.

Chapter 1: Unexpected

"I love you" words that I can only say in my mind each time I look at him. I can never tell him how I feel about him and It would be quite difficult for me to confess to someone like him. But still it really amazes me how much a person can affect you so much with their presence alone.

It's been quite awhile since I felt something like this for someone. Last time I had these feelings was back at high school. That feeling, the butterfly thing and cold chills behind my back that happens each time he passes by and as I greet him at the corridors. It's quite bothersome for me though because those butterfly feelings makes me vomit. My stomach has a different reaction each time I see him and the cold chills as if I had seen a ghost feeling is not that good. But still it is quite fascinating to feel those things again. Just a smile from him really sweeps me off my feet. If I were a block of ice I would have been evaporated each time those cute eyes look at me and when he smiles…

"Dear God kill me! Don't make me suffer anymore" well that's only in my mind. I can never say that out loud or really mean it. I love God too much to ask him to kill me so it's just an expression.